Today is Tuesday, Sept. 15 2009. Life keeps going on and on. Two years ago today my precious Daryn's body was laid to rest in Marne across from her first school. I go there but still cannot take it in. It's still so raw, so much pain. I just want to hold her. I remember on the raft at Bitely, she was sitting on my lap for some reason and she just let me hug her and love her. I think she really liked that. I miss her so much. I think that reality is trying to seep in but I try to stave it off. Reality is way too much pain for so many reasons. I feel like I am living a cardboard life, nothing is really real but I just go through the motions of it. I hope that I can find myself again but for now I am just skimming over life, getting to the next day. I put on the "I'm normal act." but I am not. Never will be. Probably as they say, a "new normal". When I saw the picture Taiylor posted with her Six Months poem and then read the poem I was so broken hearted, so many memories of the three, so much fun, so much love, my God, never knew, never had a clue, never in a million years could we have guessed that we would not always have the "three" with us, still can't imagine it, and yet we live it every day. What a loss for so many people, such a huge empty void in our family now. Always will be. I will love her forever and have a great hope of seeing her again because I know that she is home and safe and completely loved by her God and her Saviour Jesus Christ.
Grandma Sandy
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