Just grandma talking

I haven't written in a while. I have been wanting to share what happened to me the day after our coming together at Daryn's grave on the anniversary of her entering heaven.

I came back to clean up and pick up candles etc. The first thing I noticed was that the blue candle in the glass jar was still burning and it was burning clean without a speck of black soot in it. I was rather in awe of that. Well then I picked up and then stood over her looking down and was telling her how much I love her and missed her when looking down I saw a beautiful red dragonfly on my knee. I just stopped and said "Oh Daryn, I know that you love me too."I will say honestly that I have never in my life seen so many beautiful colorful red and royal blue and purple and other colors of dragonflys as I did last year. I will take it as Gods gift to us and I thank Him. I think that if I pay attention and look and be open that God tries to comfort me. I just need to try to stay open to it. So many people blessed me this weekend and they don't even know it. I call them my messengers unaware. Thank you again God. I guess when you are at the bottom of the pit then He sends in the troops.

Mindy brought the Christmas tree from school to our house and set it in the living room and plugged in the beautiful blue lights. So many beautiful ornaments and messages on it from her friends. In such an short time she was loved at Coopersville. No surprise to me because she was love personified in a little blonde girl with huge blue eyes and a smile that could light the world. Well I of course cried a lot by that beautiful tree but I have grown to love it. At our family Christmas celebration, we helped all the kids make ornaments with a note to Daryn glued inside just from them to her. Aunt Holly hung them on the tree. I had written a little prayer to say after all of the ornaments had been hung but couldn't do it as we had a real hard time when Joe came to drop off Colin and Jolee. So I think I will write it now.
Father God, Dearest Jesus, Holy Spirit,
Help us to celebrate the birth of Jesus, our Saviour, with Daryn's spirit of love and happiness, ready for fun with each other, our family, everyone that she loved so much. Wrap you arms around Joe and Kim this afternoon, and bless them and let them feel our love for them. Now Daryn is with Jesus, the greatest lover of all. So if she is with Jesus now then she is with us now too because Jesus is with us. So dear Lord Jesus, lift us up and hold us high in your love until we are all together in Heaven with You. So in Daryn's spirit we will celebrate Christmas today, the birth of our saviour. Amen

I would love to say that I am healing. I probably am but don't feel it. I will say that I am very thankful to God for the little gifts that He gives me. My life is forever changed and it will be a long time before I find myself again I think. I miss that little girl in so many ways. It seems that I have a hole in my soul and I think that in time God will fill it up. I have a big family that I love and must live for them. I think Daryn would scold me for a lot of things right now. She would set me straight I'm sure. Peace and love to all that reads this. Oh and I wanted to say that Aunt Mindy has obviously been touched by the holy spirit in setting up this blog and the things that she has shared. Thank you Mindy, another one of God's messengers.