God is Love

It is getting close to three years now since I last saw Daryn. If three years ago today I knew what was ahead I would have gone insane. Some days I think I must be insane to be able to keep continuing on this life journey without her. I have lived 61 years and had her to love for only 10 and it seems now the biggest and the most important part of my life, those precious 10 years. Now this week I bury another person I loved, my nephew Chris. Death is so very hard. I looked at some of his pictures today and it so broke my heart. Good people dying young. It just hurts so much. Love hurts as the song goes. But we must "Trust in the Lord with all our hearts and not lean on our own understanding.". Well that is easy to do because I don't have any of my own understanding. The only thing that is becoming very clear to me is that there is nothing on this earth except love that really means anything. And of course we all know that God is love. Anyway, I would like to think that you Daryn Renee' was one of Chris' greeters Sunday. Chris is a real fun guy so I know you will love him!!!! I will be there soon love. Gma

Remembering

Last night we went and watched a dance recital. We watched Kaila, and Jolee with the most beautiful costumes and the most beautiful hairdo's and my heart swelled with love for those precious girls, my girls, my granddaughters. I sat and remembered all of the recitals that we went to watch my beautiful Daryn. And remembered how my heart swelled watching her. All those memories and I need to wrap them up in a beautiful package and hide them in my heart as a sacred thing, so precious that I hardly dare touch them. I was happy last night watching but I don't know if it was an illusion of happiness or the real thing. Today, right now I want to lay down and cry forever. This going on, at times seems so silly when all I want to do is just stop. Then I tuck it away and remember I have so many to love still. I hope you watched Jolee last night Daryn. Oh how you loved it, I'm sure. I can just hear you telling about it with your big eyes and your excited voice and you awesome smile. Dear God I miss you so.

So we go on with life, you there inside of us forever till we see you again. My angel forever and ever.

Your gramma S

Daryn's 13th Birthday

Happy 13th Birthday Daryn,

We celebrated your birthday at the beach today. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining and the water was glass. The girls wrote you birthday wishes on balloons and sent them up to heaven for you.

Love and miss you bunches

Aunt Wendy

Happy Birthday Sweetheart

Happy birthday sweetheart girl. The birds are singing and the sun is shining for you today. I was thinking that maybe you celebrate your birthday on the day that you entered heaven. Now that is a celebration of great magnitude I am sure!!!!!!!!! But for now honey, I just miss you so much, thinking of all of your birthday parties we had with you, especially thinking of watching you being born. You sure changed your daddy and your mommy's lives. I think daddy was terrorized and I think your mommy was feeling complete. They ended up doing okay with you didn't they? When love comes into this world and lands in your lap you are changed forever and you are forever in love. And you were that first love for your mom and dad and always will be. So my golden girl, I love you with all my heart and I celebrate your life on this earth everyday but especially today with all my beautiful memories of you. Happy Birthday Angel.

Loving you forever,
Gramma Sandy

Oneday

I cannot even imagine what life will be with Daryn one day. Just heard on the radio this week that the biggest party is going on in heaven and will be for all eternity. Think about it. With Daryn and everyone else that we ever knew. How great this will be. I get excited just thinking about it. Everyone happy and in a loving mood. Our leader Daryn is going to be 13 tomorrow. Seems so young but she was much older than us spiritually. Some day my little one, by the mercy of God, I'll join you for a birthday . In the mean time I'll try to be a steward here on God's earth. Missing you!!! Are you missing me? I'm sure you aren't for you know what we can only Imagine. By the way Happy Birthday blondie.
Grandpa

Happy Easter Daryn

Happy Easter Daryn, my sweetheart. I am guessing that the angels are singing the most beautiful songs celebrating Jesus triumpth over death so we can all be with you one day in heaven. We celebrated with your mom and dad and Jolee and Colin and your aunts and cousins at Aunt Holly's house today. We had a grand Easter egg hunt and the kids had fun, Jolee especially. She ran like the wind to find her eggs! We all miss you so much my girl. Phoenix sometimes asks me if my heart hurts and it does so very much. I held your mommy real tight for you tonight I hope she could feel you. I love you my angel and I thank God for every precious minute that we had with you on this earth. Grandma

The other day Kaila said "when is Daryn's birthday?"

I said "April 11".

Kaila asked "Is she going to be 14?"

"No - not yet, 13 this year", I said.

Kaila has a hard time talking about Daryn along with tears and sadness - as a matter of fact she gets mad at me when I cry. Instead she prefers to talk about her birthday coming up like she would any of her other cousins. Because she is still one of the cousins and ALWAYS will be. I have a feeling Daryn would appreciate us not always being so sad when we think about her and include her in our prayers.

As we approach your birthday, Daryn, we will celebrate your life! I am thanking God and his son Jesus Christ for eternity......... Knowing that you are in the presence of God is a great gift! Knowing your mom and dad and siblings and grandparents, cousins and family/friends will join you one day is even better!